Another surgery in the books. Today I had surgery for chronic exertional compartment syndrome performed on both of my legs. If you’d asked me just 2 years ago whether I thought I’d have two surgeries in 1 year and 3 months, I’d have laughed in your face. Before college soccer, I’d never really been injured that badly. Now in the course of just a little over a year, I’ve torn my ACL, developed chronice shin splints, developed chronic exertional compartment syndrome in both legs, and sublexed my shoulder in a fluke goalie dive. Wow. And yet, that’s nothing compared to some people. I’m blessed.
Before you roll your eyes, (another classic #blessed post from the Christian girl, hear me out). I am. God has provided in so many ways, and I’m thankful for the journey. Some days it’s hard. Some days I don’t understand. Some days I get frustrated, but overall, I’m joyful. It’s taken me about 10 months, but I’ve finally learned how to truly be there for my teammates while not being on the field. I’ve learned how to have joy even though I’m not in a position that I’d chose on my team. I’ve learned to deal with live’s pot holes one day at a time. One step at a time, because God guides my steps – because God’s plans far exceed my plans – because God blesses his children. I’m right where I’m supposed to be.
I believe next year will be my year. I believe God has big things for my future, and I’m comfortable where I’m at. I’m okay being on that table and going under the knife, because I know my God has a plan. A lot of people asked me how I felt about the impending surgery. They wondered if I was nervous. Honestly, I had a peace, and anxiousness, and excitement, because I knew that this surgery was just one step towards recovery. What began two decembers ago could maybe culminate in this surgery. Maybe, I’ll finally be healthy and reach my full potential, but if not, at least I tried, and at least some of my pain will be relieved so my future can contain mini-marathons, biking with the family, soccer with my kids, etc.
When you begin to learn to take a step at a time, nothing seems impossible. Why? Because each of those steps are being taken with God, and nothing is impossible with God. Where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is freedom. There’s freedom from worry. There’s freedom from failure. There’s freedom from fear. So here’s to hoping this is it – here’s to a full recovery and a future in which sitting out does not exist. Thanks for the prayers. Thanks for the support. Let the recovery begin. 🙂