Atelophobia – (n.) It’s the fear of imperfection or not being good enough; an extreme fear of failing to achieve perfection in any of one’s actions, desires, or beliefs.
Sometimes, these thoughts of pure inadequacy creep into my mind and they just randomly roll through my mind and hit all at once like a ton of bricks. I’m not sure why they come or why I listen to them, but I do. Sometimes these thoughts last a long time, but other times they flee as quickly as they came. Can your heart ever fully and completely recover from rejection? Will there ever be a time when it doesn’t sting? When I can think about those friendships/relationships and not feel hurt or feel like I wasn’t enough?
And when will I let myself fully accept good things and let myself know I deserve them? I just think one of satan’s biggest footholds is the mind – and those feelings of inadequacy. The more he can make me feel like I can’t make a difference and the more he can make me focus on my weaknesses, the more unbelief he plants in my mind.
“Courage is a heart word. The root of the word courage is cor – the Latin word for heart. In one of its earliest forms, the word courage meant “To speak one’s mind by telling all one’s heart.” Over time, this definition has changed, and today, we typically associate courage with heroic and brave deeds. But in my opinion, this definition fails to recognize the inner strength and level of commitment required for us to actually speak honestly and openly about who we are and about our experiences — good and bad. Speaking from our hearts is what I think of as “ordinary courage.” -Brene Brown