The Meaning Behind my Blog Title

There’s a famous poem called “Footprints in the Sand” by Mary Stevenson. Ever since I can remember, I have loved this poem. It’s so raw and true. It’s about a man who has a dream and in his dream he sees many scenes from his life, and in those scenes there’s two sets of footprints, but in the hardest times of his life, when he’s at rock bottom and doesn’t know how to get up, there is only one footprint. This bothers the man and so he asks God why he would abandon him in his hour of need. My favorite part is God’s reply. It was then that I carried you. What an incredibly beautiful picture of love. At our lowest point, when we feel like we can’t go on, and we don’t have the strength to stand, God simply reaches down, picks us up and wraps us in the safety of his arms. He then proceeds to walk for us. “In our weakness he is strong” (2 Corinth. 12:9). This promise is so raw, real, and beautiful, but in the moment – in the heat of the trial, it doesn’t always feel like we are in God’s arms. In all honesty, it can feel like we’ve been abandoned. But, I think that feeling stems from being focused on where we are and not knowing how to move on or get up. At rock bottom, the only place to look is up. But looking up – takes courage. Having hope – takes courage. Thinking that you’ll ever leave rock bottom – takes courage. And where do we find this courage? Katie Davis is the author of “Kisses from Katie.” She is one amazing woman. In her blog she says, “And I cry, because I do not feel courageous. I feel downright defeated sometimes. Maybe courage is not at all about the absence of fear but about obedience even when we are afraid. Courage is trusting when we don’t know what is next, leaning into the hard and knowing that it will be hard, but more, God will be near. Maybe bravery is just looking fear in the face and telling it that is dos not win because I have known The Lord here. I have known The Lord in the long, dark night.” Her words are so true and raw. They are hard. Leaning into the hard and knowing it will be hard can seem impossible. But the Lord is victorious, and everything is redeemed in and through him. And it’s hard to remember that, and it’s hard to have hope. But.. It was then that I carried you. That will always be true. God will always be there carrying us up out of the pit. He’s constant and he doesn’t change. He’s good and he’s sovereign. He’s there in our rawest, hardest, most painful moments, and he’s not about to leave. Just a few days ago, I was just mentally and emotionally drained, and I hadn’t spent the time in the Word I needed to refill my soul, and I was driving to my appointment with my AT and surgeon, and I spent a solid hour in the car just listening to Christian music and crying out to God. I felt like God was by me, but He was just choosing not to answer. And I needed to hear from Him. And then at just the right moment, the song “Reason to Sing” by All Sons and Daughters came on. And God said, “I’m here. I haven’t left. I’m enough. I’m carrying you, and I’m carrying those who are hurting around you.”

“When the pieces seem to shatter
To gather off the floor
And all that seems to matter
Is that I don’t feel you anymore
No, I don’t feel you anymore
I need a reason to sing
I need a reason to sing
I need to know that You’re still holding
The whole world in your hands
I need a reason to sing
When I’m overcome by fear
And I hate everything I know
If this waiting lasts forever
I’m afraid I might let go
I’m afraid I might let go
Oh Oh Oh
I need a reason to sing
I need a reason to sing
I need to know that You’re still holding
The whole world in your hands
I need a reason to sing
Will there be a victory
Will you sing it over me now
Your peace is the melody You sing it over me now
Oh Lord
Will there be a victory
Will you sing it over me now
Oh Lord
Your peace is the melody 
You sing it over me now
I need a reason to sing
I need a reason to sing
I need to know that You’re still holding
The whole world in Your hands
That is a reason to sing”

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